Avalon

The beauty of Newfoundland and Labrador is unparalelled in this world and that's a fact. Here on the Avalon Peninsula are some of the world's most beautiful sights.
Cape Spear is North America's most easterly point and the site is worth any trouble of going there. Stand still and breathe deep the briny smell of the ocean and listen to thunder of the Atlantic Ocean smashing itself to bits on the cliffside faces...be still and listen with your breath and I swear to God you'll hear the mermaids singing.

More Shit In L-IF-E

I have a stupid court appearnce today for sitting at the top of a stairwell to an underground parking garage.
I was threatened with torture and kidnapping by these goofs, not one of which was born in this country.
I find it surreal that Toronto causes so much misery to the disenfranchised members of society and then goes out of its way to employ people who aren't even from here. I've lost track of how often some sub-human foreigner has made fun of me and mocked my pain for being homeless!
Hello!No one in CanaDUH would be unemployed if these fuckers weren't stealing all of our jobs!
WHy don't these subhumans go back to where they came from?

Perceptions

I seriously think that we bend reality to suit our perceptions, or perhaps reality bends itself to those perceptions. In my religion Friday is generally not a good day: Our Lord and Savior was crucified by the very people he tried to save; we avoid meat on pain of mortal sin; we offer up our sufferings; and all prayers are ones of sorrow and contrition.
Since I adopted (or re-adopted) this stance there has been no shortage of humiliations and frustrations to offer up for the sake of lost souls.
Were Fridays all-ways this bad and I've only become aware through my seeking? Or did reality bend itself around my thinking to accomodate my perceptions?
It's the same with my novena prayers for the perfect home. Three times recently I've received key-chains as gifts---as if God and Mary and Jesus and all the saints are dropping me a hint that my novenas are being heeded, and I will soon have use for these keychains.
Time will tell but the way I've been tuned to my personal reality these days makes me cautiously optimistic.

Homes Last with Dykie Hag

Streets To Homes is just another beaurocratic fuck up in the endless line of beaurocratic fuck-ups in this city. Because I'm temporarily staying with my twin they are denying me any services saying I don't count as homeless.
Even worse is the horribly misnamed Homes First Society. In the 1990's they ran a place called Street City, where I resided from Sep'92 to May'93.
When I left SC in May I paid my rent and Donna Hagar, the one in charge of the SC Bank pocketed my rent money. I know this becuase HOmes First claims I have an arrears with them: BULL FUCKING SHIT:
DONNA HAGAR IS A COMMON THIEF AND STOLE MY RENT MONEY.
Donna Hagar also seduced vulnerable womyn at SC, telling them she'd gaurantee them housing if they let her fuck them. Most of these womyn were straight but desperate. When she fucked them over for housiong they were too humiliated to tell the truth until one young womon did.
Being bisexual I totally support gay rights, but a straight man would have been fired outright for such a thing. However, Donna Hagar, a theiving disgrace to gay womyn and womyn in general is allowed to keep her job and have positions of power over the most vulnerable womyn in society.
What the fuck is The Homes First Society doing?
This is an outrage.

Exclusive Rights

I'm getting heartily sick of certain ethnicities being allowed to put themselves in exclusive groups.
For example, I've been wanting to attend a footcare clinic for some help with my arthritis and other reasons. Today I was informed said clinic is aboriginal-specific. What's up with that? I know, of course, that Native Indians have gone though a lot of bullshit. They've had their land stolen, been betrayed by governments, had their religion and culture mocked and desecrated, and went through all types of abuse at schools. I support the idea of Aboriginals having priority in their own country; however, if Whites set up a Caucasian-Specific organization, we'd be accused of discrimination.
Will this bullshit never end?

OCAP Betraying Citizens

I was once an executive member of the Ontario Coalition Against Poverty and damned proud of that membership. In the late 1990's the debacle at the so-called Safe Park had me moving away but lately the beaurocracy at OCAP has been a major turnoff.
I was being held in a place called Vanier Centre For Women from Nov 05 to July 06.
My parents sent me $200 in a Christmas parcel which was stolen by the staff at Vanier. OCAP promised to help me then gave me the royal runaround.
I doubt that this would have happened if I weren't born in this country. They seem to be going out of their way to help anyone non-White.
Yes, everyone deserves fair treatment. I'd never deny that to anyone, but they have gone out of their way to help immigrants in the prison system while ignoring my plight after giving me several indications that I would be helped. There's no way my
being robbed of my money and clothing would have been dismissed if I hadn't been born in this country.

Pain & Addiction

In my struggle to leave behind crack cocaine I've returned to PAIN tolerance and body modification as a way to release brain chemicals which bring on natural highs. It's not drugs that make you high, but your brain that makes you high.
Yesterday I resisted the urge for crack although I did drink four 10% beers over the day.
When I was finished drinking two of those beers I put two brands on myu arm using a cigarette lighter. The endorphin rush felt good but I wonder if I wasn't cheating by being a bit tipsy when I branded myself.
I should have the courage to do it without being on any chemicals!